Aside from all the cancer crap, I still have to deal with everything that was already going on in my life. Including boyfriend-stuff.
I really don’t want to think about it right now. I don’t want to solve any problems right now. I don’t want to fix anything or prove my point or change anything about who I am, even if it’s wrong. Not right now.
Why can’t I just put life on hold and deal with all this when the cancer thing is over?
May I never tell my son to man up
May I never tell my daughter to act like a lady
May I never call their exceptional weird
May I never laugh at their eccentricities
May I never try to correct the way they see the world
May I always encourage them
I learn from them
Suddenly you’re 21 and you’re screaming along in your car to all the songs you used to listen to when you were sad in middle school and everything is different but everything is good
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Nickname: Sophie, Sia
Birthday: May 27th
Height: 163 cm
Time Zone: UTC
What time and date is it there: 12h41 on August 28th
Average hours of sleep I get each night: now about 10 hours. normally 8h.
Last thing I googled: the movie theater’s phone number - I forgot my shopping bag there yesterday. I suck.
Most used phrase(s): "The other left" probably.
First word that comes to mind: what
Last thing I said to a family member: "I just had breakfast, I’m not really hungry, but if you are…"
One place that makes me happy and why: Porto’s city park; I have so many good memories there and it’s just a beautiful quiet place
Favorite beverages: Rosé wine and water
Last movie I watched in the cinema: The hundred-foot journey
Three things I can’t live without: friends, cooking/baking, and I don’t know. The last couple of months have really put things in perspective. I mean, I do know, “water, food and air” are the 3 things I really can’t live without.
Something I plan on learning: How to save money. And mind my words.
A piece of advice for all my followers: Don’t say no to going out with friends - you never know when you won’t be able to do it and will regret all the times you didn’t go.
You all have to listen to this song: Not only does my friend have a great voice, but this is also Portuguese traditional music. It’s awesome and heartfelt and just… listen to it in a quiet place.
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Has anyone not done this?
And it was worth it.
I have this friend who, just last year, had to be away from other people and locked inside the house for 4 months for health reasons. Whenever the subject comes up she starts tearing up.
I’ve been away from my friends for health reasons too, and she’s well aware of that.
Last night she decided to through a dinner party for the friends I introduced her to and invite my boyfriend. We had talked about having dinner at her house before, but she did it while I was away. Everyone went, including Ruca.
Why would she text me today telling me “We finally all had dinner last night!”?
Not only am I well aware of that - my boyfriend was there, it’s kind of obvious I knew what was going on, but it only makes me feel more alone and apart from all my friends. She has been in this situation before, she knows what it is like.
What is she expecting me to reply? I’m glad you had fun with my friends and boyfriend while I stayed home alone?
Thank you for making my day brighter, way to go, you!
I can’t wait until this treatment thing is over and I can go back to my normal life.
I miss home. I miss my boyfriend. I miss my (our) rules and my house chores. I miss my own schedules. I miss having something to do everyday.
Chemotherapy isn’t as horrible as I had been told (yet?), I have only felt sick/nauseated a couple of days, the rest of the time my condition varies from way-too-tired to function, aching bones, low blood pressure (also known as “I can’t stand for long”) or over-all discomfort. It’s impossible for me to concentrate on anything for too long for the first week and a half after chemo, which leaves me with about 15 days of feeling relatively normal per month (not all on a row).
I should be working on my thesis, but I need my space and quiet to concentrate and that just won’t happen here and now; there is always someone calling to check on me, someone coming to see if I need anything or just interrupting me because I’m at home, which means we can talk. I know none of them mean harm, but it gets really frustrating to only be allowed 30 min of peace and quiet at a time.
I really miss my house, my schedules, my privacy… My space.