Instead I took an analgesic pill and went to the pharmacy to get heat relief pads.
Stupid back pain, when will it go away for good?
My aesthetician just commented on how committed and settled down I am at 22.
I know it’s not normal for people my age in Portugal to be in such a committed relationship, I know I am just now in my prime years… but I always thought that love was forever and that it doesn’t make sense for two people to date if they don’t envision themselves together forever.
At the same time I’m always afraid to be missing out on life because I have someone else to think about, someone I can’t just say “I’ll be back in a year”.
I’ve lived more than most 22 year olds, I’ve lived in three different countries, I have two foreign families who are like my own (+ in laws), I’ve had three jobs, including my current desk job…
But every now and then I wonder what it would be like to not have any attachments abd just be free to do as I please…
I want to go to the gym, I was actually supposed to already have gone, but Ruca stayed up late finish a school paper and now doesn’t want to get up and has put his arm around me to keep me here too.
I feel bad for waking him up, but I need to go to the gym. Arg.
I want to give Ruca a trip to London as part of his Christmas gift.
I’ll already be in London due to work (I work Saturday-Thursday in Birmingham and have a ride to London, then and instead of coming back home Thursday night, he would meet me in London and stay there until Monday).
The flight is not that expensive, actually less expensive than last year’s Christmas gift (when I gave him a trip do Disneyland), but the hotels are so incredibly expensive!
And to that we’d still have to buy tube tickets (about 35€ each for the 4 days) and food and tickets for museums and so.
How in the world will I be able to afford all this? And I want to visit London with him so badly!
Does anyone know of cheap places to stay in London?
Yes, I know I could. I’ve been doing pretty much that for the last 30 days (eating right 5 days and not so well the other 2).
I know that there are people changing recipes up and making them Paleo, I will have to do something like that too, as I now know for a fact that gluten and I don’t go together (I get knee pain, bloated and all kind of skin reactions).
I know I’m okay with lactose, I’ve already experimented with cutting it out 3 or 4 times (doctors had told me my skin problems were probably caused by lactose) and when I bring it back into my diet to see if anything changes, nothing does. And I love my cheese and real butter.
I will keep eating mostly Paleo, as I normally don’t drink milk and I can’t eat gluten. I also rarely eat any beans (even soy gives me gas).
But I need fruit. I’ve been without it for a month and I miss it.
The things with baked good is mostly because I do them for other people (I sell them at fairs/markets) and they’ll never be the same if they’re Paleo (and everyone who’s tried my cupcakes this far has loved them).
Also, I’m sick of eggs and I really don’t like to eat all the fat in the world to be full until my next meal. (I’ve been doing only 3 meals a day)
I will, however, hold you on the questions part, as I’ll have tones of questions regarding gluten-free baking!
I met with the nutritionist this afternoon and, although I believe in what she tells me about Paleo vs “normal” eating, I realized, while we discussed it, that Paleo just isn’t for me.
I’m very grateful to her for helping me discover why my knees were hurting and I was blotted and not losing any weight although I was eating 1200 calories/day or less.
However, I cannot give up on the thing I love the most: baking.
I know I could do “Paleo baking” but that’s not real baking nor real Paleo. I would just be fooling myself.
So for now and in order to survive without gaining weight (preferably lose some) during the holidays + work traveling in January, I’ll try to stick to Paleo as much as possible. But as February rolls around I’ll have to change things up and eat “normally” again.
I will not go back to gluten, although I’ll have to work really hard to find the best gluten-free recipes for all of my baking, and I’ll still make wheat flour cupcakes/cakes for everyone else.
However, I prefer to count my calories and watch my macros than to not eat any fruit, not eating any bread ever and having trouble eating out every single time (I don’t like salads. Actually I kind of hate lettuce, I think that’s the problem. Also, cold food.)
Although my nutritionist is the nicest person, although I’m sure she’s a great nutritionist, better than all the nutritionists I’ve tried in the past, I just can’t give up what makes me most happy (baking) for a thinner body.
I should make clear I do want to have a healthy weight, I’m not that far from my goal, I just don’t need to be stick thin and “dry” (as she puts it) to be happy. But I do need to bake.